Something short to get back into the Swing of things

I know it has been some time since I posted but here goes...

My life has been pretty hectic since my last post. Things are picking up with my research, although it isn’t working properly, and I have been balancing a great deal of personal and family tragedies. I found myself sinking into a pretty deep depression. I started to question what I wanted from life. Furthermore, I started to question if I could find what I wanted in life again. You see there was a point, before I really started things with Kai, when I had what I thought I wanted. Everything was great. I was happy, enjoyed my life and wanted little else. Then things got hairy. I say hairy in the worst sense of the word. The submissive I was with started cheating and post the first and second offenses things just got bad. Not only did they get bad between us and ultimately lead to the end of the relationship but it made me bitter and closed off to others. I am unsure where I would be now had those events not happened the way that they did. They have led me to a better place in the end though. They have allowed me to fully grasp what I want out of my relationships. When it is all said and done, I want a situation where my partner and I grow together so much that we can’t be ourselves without the other. I want a submissive that can’t be who she wants to be without me, without my guidance and presence. In the same breath I want a submissive who I can’t see myself without.

What does this mean on the short term? Very little. It really just gives me a bar by which to measure my relationships and desires for the future. It is putting into words what I have felt for some time at this point. I think that will be all for this post. Hopefully I will have something fun to post very soon. Perhaps with pictures, but that really is yet to be seen. Until then…. Enjoy your fun boys and girls.